Thursday, July 19, 2007

I'm not one of those moms

I'm not one of those moms that loves to explore the artistic abilities of her children. I don't embrace mess, even though I'm surrounded by it all day. The thought of play dough makes my heart palpitate. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE the idea of my children participating in the arts. I love the projects they bring home from school. I just don't love it near my kitchen. I have enough trouble just getting last night's yams off of the high chair. When Malynn caught sight of Dallin working on a painting today, nothing could keep her off the table. Realizing that her will is stronger than mine, I took a deep breath and let her loose. The girl loved it. She had such a look of satisfaction on her face as she watched the paint swirl around on her leg. I guess I need to loosen up a bit. Please tell me that this non-toxic paint doesn't stain. Please.









I had a sad realization today that this is the only decent photo taken of me this year. I was trying to find a closer one of my face for a different project and couldn't find a single one! I guess I need to hand the camera over to someone else once in awhile. I need to stop ducking when Jamie has the camera. Don't I want my children to remember what I looked like?

Monday, July 16, 2007

A Love Note

The highlight of my entire day occurs the moment I hear the hum of the garage door opening. Not long after, in walks a man with a huge grin on his face-- and all chaos breaks in our house. "DADDDDYYYYYY!!!!" You'd think they hadn't seen him in years. Though he is tired, no doubt, after working a sometimes 12-hour day, he immediately drops the armful of mail and drops to his knees. I watch the loud tackle from the kitchen, my usual station at that time of day. The scowl on my face from trying to assemble some sort of fresh, healthy dinner with all the monkeys jumping about at my feet immediately changes. I can't help it. I wait patiently for the primates to finish wrestling and the hugs to dissipate, so that I can creep in and have my turn.

This man just lets the sun in. His day is full, indeed, before he's even walked through our door. His day of dealing with other doctors, teaching med students, listening to ailing patients, and talking with concerned family members, and the responsibility to be at the top of his game is a lot for him to carry. But somehow, he manages to shed that pressure for a moment when he walks through that door. Somehow, he knows just what we need-- his time, his smile, his approval, and more of his waning energy. And he gives us more.

Jamie, this is a love note to you.